hidop dengan stress

 assalamualaikum dairi pelepas hahaaha...

    macam mana nak tersuskan perjalanan dengan strees hidup macam nie? kita sentiasa ada amasalah yee senang bercakap.. berat yang memikul.. aku rasa aku dah cuba macam-macam cara nak atasi stress ak.. sekali aku dapat nampak macam man orang yang ak sayang tak sayang aku macam man aku sayang dia.. demi menunaikan tanggujawab dan keredhaan ilahi, ak terpaksa.. ak terpaksa bertahan denagn apa yang aku dah pilih.. klu aku salah lagkah murka disisiNya.. apa lah aku nak buat... aku kena jaga jugak laa terpaksa.. sebab ak kena ingat ada keredhaan disebalik semua nie.. dan aku kenaingat yang ada hikmah disebalik semua nie.. tp sanggup ka aku nie bertahan dengan semua nie? 

    kadangh-kadang aku penat laa dengan semua yang aku hadap, nak cerita dekat orang tak boleh, nak sembang dengan orang luar lagi la tak boleh.. aku cuma boleh simpan jaa dalam hati nie.. huhuhuhuu... lama-lama aku terbayang sorang-sorang.. orang cakap aku nie kuat berangan.. aku nie berfikir.. apa nak jadi.. apa yang aku perlu buat untuk selesaikan masalah uyang aku terima nie.. dengan kerja aku sekarang  nie, aku dah tak tau nak hadap macam mana.. ehhh babi laa.. kenapa hidop aku nie macam nie!! penat laa.. ak disisihkan, aku dilayan  macam apa entah.. semua orang sama jaa.. aku nie just nak hidop macam dulu.. senang-senang.. tak laa terok sangat.. yess ada masalah keurwangan.. tp sekarang semua masalah aku ada bukan takat keuwangan lagi.. semua ada..  nak cerita dulu ak serabai.. sekarang lagi serabai.. tapi dulu aku tak ada masalah yang melibat kan kuluarga aku.. langsung! tolong laa asal laa babi nie semua!! 

just a story too tell

 this the story of my life that i think i have too tell, so that i can let i go and pass by.. 

    those really women will ask question that they didn't want to no off? 

this are the things that has happen to me at least that i know off the past few weeks.. the this is man will be man.. every one knows that.. what i mean is every one who is anyone knows that. hahahaha..

    for me personally, i got no one too tell off, just to clear my chest.. so some guys just get it over with something that unbelievably stupid.. and other just trust a friends.. few of them did very offensive to other or even planet... but for me its here in the category of "unbelievably stupid" hahahahahaha...  just some how my hope that if i tell it here my problem wont be a problem anymore... hahahahhaha..

     firstly, i miss my late dad.. let me tell you about my late father, he died on 2016, the same year as my marriage.. all my family members always said to me that there miss "him" after that said to me that im like my late father.. it not that im not proud of it.. but they never notice that im also his son, the that also miss him a lot.. when some tolls u that u look, talk, solve problem, basically every thing is the same as the person that u lost.. don't u just hate that?? furthermore, even u can't tell the same thing too theme because when u do that, moment of silence come..

    they tells u all there problem, they tell u that u can help out, but when u tell them your story the just give to the shiftiest  answer u ever think off.. tell me if any of you guys think that ok with that.. even too ur spouse, u cant tell anything because everything is overreacting and some times the answers are there family is better then u.. can u accept that?? 

    some  people tells me that doing good will not make it better.. so times u need to be bad in other to get the good.. well i said to them never in my life that when i did bad repays with good.. so that is all.. for now.. 

i hope no one read this.. hahaha and hope that mylife will get better.. same too you all.. thanks

    

Something that we can feel from our guts

did you ever felt something was wrong form you guts, because that what happen to me right now. from the face of the people around me. i have to think what has happen. maybe something that i said recently. sometimes we have to remember and keep quit for the thing like this. for me the problem will resolve it selves by silent and rethink what has we done.
  the problem will not resolve by done nothing that is correct but the problem will resolve by remember what we have done and make make a start correction from there, and remember sometimes the truth are better be hurt then keep it in. so my problem now are what, then i can solve how. some people love to keep it safe because that can make us and the person emotionally safe. that  what usually happen to most of person.
  this solution usually is from my Owen  experience, it hurt but it will get better even though the mark are there. also apologist are depends on the person who receive on how there are taking it and who we respond. Main thing is we have to be strong no matter how bad it going to be, because that is the only thing that we make us batter in the future. Yes we will remember what has happen but it is the thing that make our guts clam. that its for today bye:D

THINGS THAT YOU NEVER THOUGHT IT WOULD BE

sometimes in live you will feel that you have done the better, but ones you realize that you can not change the people mind about something that you do. the things  is that you need to understand, people are't the one that need to change. You are the one that need the change because every action is reflected by we did.
 some times that silence are the best way to handle things. that what happen to me in this few weeks that i did not acknowledge at first few days, than i starting to see that problem sometimes solve it selves by silence. what im try to share are, sometimes my get crazy hard but dont lose hope because that problem comes for the moment and that moment that you need to keep calm and you will see.
  that the things that about the problem, you just have to look at different angle, your position and what you have. if you have that a look at that, you live can bee change.The main things that you have to remember are how to choose your word before you said it. most of my words before i realize that its a problem are i dont think about it. most of the word that we using can hurt more than it my seems. so be careful with the word.
  word can hurt people more that a fist, that a fact. truth are pain ut it will heal in time, but hurt by lies and word are more scar that we will never see. that is my story for the day. hope too share in other times. bye...:D        

things that u know but u cant't tell

this is my life for now, i got things that i know but i have to keep it silence. the thing is, when its hurt it will hurt inside, no one will understand why or what. this tings start to happen to me when i got married and understand what life really is.
    some of your problem my not suitable for some person to know. that is the problem that hit me right now. Also, i have nobody to tell it to, i have lost my father since before i got married, lost contact with all my friends since before i work, lost my best companion since high school. so, i got a problem that i needed to solve before its killing me inside. bit by bit its been killing me till i can felt it since last week.
  most of the problem cam from my house, still i dint know how to solve the problem that has kicking me down. does did not enough that i got pressured at work. i need someone right now. some one that i can talk to, someone to tell to. some one that when i ask, they can gave me the answer like my late father did.
    i miss my late father, i miss him a lot, most of my day was thinking if he was here, he always help me with the way that i can solve easily. the things that happen sometimes strange, and i cannot understand. im trying to find someone who are open mined and reasonable answer.
    why do women always listed to others person life and compare it with the life they have now? cant we just live the way it is? this is the question that bunging my mind. seriously if someone ask me a question now, they will receive two more from me. i am in a confuse situation please some help me. i really dont know what to do.   that all for today thanks for reading :D

new post of mylife

the life that I've been sometimes is as suck as hell.. but one's u take back and try too see the beauty of it, u can forget it all... just for ur info times when married person thinks that ur couple are going too accept u as u are.. just forget that.. that just ur imagination in movies... in real live u have to change ur salve to be a batter person.. not just for u but too your family also..

  for married couple u need's to know that ur couple that are ur friends,best friends.. so if u guys got mad or fight that just normal, but the tips are.. when one of u got angry off something, u just shut-up and lower ur eyes at him/her.. just listen too what ur couple are talking about.. that the best thing that u could ever do, i know because im a fireman that has alot of high pressure too take care off.. 

   we as a fireman we don't have time too think for small thing such brothers fighting, girlfriends take off, no money, boss get angry or what not... that just rubbish.. because we(fireman) more concern about live that we are have too save, thing too save.. and others.. our priority are too safety off people that needs.. so if got married to a fireman.. just follow him and dont fight him or her off.. firstly for hari raya holly day  we only have a 3 to one chance to get( 3 years only get once for raya) secondly on normal day we do not have public holidays.. so can u imagine how pressure for us?

   so that al l for now.. i type again latter :D

cerita tentang beberapa bulan lalu.... :D

assalamualaikum....

  nie cerita aktiviti ak masa last beberapa bula ak xpost.. heehhehehe.. ok.. hmm... mana nak mula erk.. ak ada p latihan  khusus latihan scuba hari 2.. latihan sampai 1 bln.. hahahhaa... boring gila sebb latihann  kat kijal.. terengganu.. apa pon xdak.. dok dalam bilik tgk pantai ja.. kerja kami.. hahhahah.. tapi overall best sbb semua yang p 2 sporting laa jgk.. hehhehehe.. pastu ada bunga lak kot atas.. memang best.. tgk awek dalam air lak 2.. haghhahhahaha jenoh2...

  masa trenning hari 2 bawu ak taw yang semua movie dalam filem  english bohong jaaa.. dalm air kita leh pekak... boleh mati sebb nitrogen dalm badan.. lagi satu bila kita nak keluar dari air yang dalam kena slow.. sbb leh buat paru2 meletoh atau saluran darah tersumbat.... 

 yang lawak masa latihan kat sana kami ad jalan kaki dari giat kijal sampai hotel kami hotel arowana.. hahahaha.. sapa yang dok kat sana taw la bapa jaoh perjalan kami.. dari pukoi 5 jalan sampai dekat bilik pukoi 7 tepat.. ahhaahhahhahha... mlm 2 tido teros hahahaa... lepas tu yang lawak.. masa dalam kelas.. sesi perkenalan dengan jurulatih... instroctor 2 ada cakap.. "lu klu xtaw lu tanya.. nnt bila dalam air bawu luu nak tanya waa wawa sama luu.." hahhahah... ak pon xpasti benda apa waawa 2 mula2.. lepas 4 hari kami da latihan dalam air.. ak tersilap buat retrieving 1st stage... bawu la ak dengaq "wawa" dia dalam air.. hahahhahha.. sebijik dalam air ak denngaq....

  hmmm... ok pasal awek lak... masa dekat sana ada laa instructor pompuan nie.. dia kerja sebagai nurse kat tempat 2.. badan dia cubby.. hehehehe.. pastu dia ajak laa kami CPR... hahahaaahha cara dia nak tunjuk dada kembang kempis guna tangan dia kat dada dia.. haahahhaa.. dalam hati ak nie dah gelak bapak arr.. sbb otak ak dah kot laen dah.. heheheehehehe....

 masa kami keluaq p giat 2.. ada awek nie muka macam heliza bak ang.. siyes comey bapak gila... hahahhaa.. ak ngn membe ak nie saja laa hari 2 gila sikit... kami betting.. 50sen.... maen teka nama orang... berat orang... umo orang.. hahahha.. sapa yang ada kat situ kena arr.. tiba2 salah sorang dari kami p tanya berat laa.. umo lah... hahhahahahahaha... ada yang perasan kami nak ngorat.. hahahahahahahahahahaa nasib hampa arr..  ok yang heliza nie.. kebetulan turn ak kena tanya... so.. bet dia klu kami mintak no. dia.. sapa yang dia nak bagi... antara ak ngn membe ak nie.. hahhahha.... so ak pon p.. tego... ak tanya laa.. mula2 malu2 nak bgtw.. last2 dia kata ak.. hahahahahahaha.... ak pon apa lagi mintak laa... hahahahhaa....